Bikingequalsfreedom

the sound-I can't escape myself

There are some certain things I'm obsessed with.Like curry,or mushrooms,or pesto,or traveling.
One such thing is biking.I LOVE LOVE LOVE biking.When biking,I feel the absolut freedom.I wanna open my hands in the air and fly.Which I rarely do,'cause I wanna be known as a careful driver.
The thing is my parents don't let me buy a bike,here in the city,'cause they're afraid.So this pictures are from two summers ago,at our cottage.
I borrowed a friend's bike the other day.I was soo happy riding it.Dad promised he'll buy me an awesome bike when I finish school.

We are wonderfull creatures.We just sometimes forget it.
I hate the typical conversations.The safe conversations.
About the weather,astrology,gossip.
I love being surprised by humans.People I didn't expect to think in this way.Saying clever things.
Sometimes I feel I'm fulled of love for everyone.And I wanna take care of everyone.
Find out what people think.Their fears.Their dreams.What they thing before they fall asleep.
How can we talk about all these typical things,which reveal so few characteristics of a person,when we have a whole universe in front of us,waiting to be discovered and loved?

I'm an orc

TThere are times I feel I've forgotten how to behave.
I'm like an awkward orc.
I wasn't like that.
Can't remember when I started feeling it.
Weird,huh?

Handmade skirt

OK.Time to show off once again.I post these pictures firstly because I've got to post my pictures,otherwise I feel guilty,so I'm sorry for the low quality.They were taken by my laptop camera.
The other reason why is that Magda asked me a long time ago to post something I made with my sewing machine.
All I'm doing these days is eating,running,going out and watching movies which is appropriate for holidays,but it also means I will end up studying tons of homework the last minute like I always do.
My room is shitty and my mum is always telling me to tidy it up,but I answer to her that my psychologist says I need a creative chaos around me (which is actually a line from the Stepford Wives).
I went out with my family yesterday and we spent a couple of hours together.I barely see them everyday with school etc,which makes me realise I'm becoming less attached to them everyday,and I think I'm ready to move out next year in my own house.In the meanwhile,I'm just dreaming of it.
Don't know why I'm saying all these stuff today.The truth is I woke up this evening wanting to say even more but I forgot them.Never mind.I'll come up with something else next time.
See you soon.Pinky promise.(Despicable Me.Remember?)

Please sunshine come to me.

It's been about a month since I last took a picture with my dslr camera and I guess I won't have it fixed before the easter holidays end.

I feel like scuba diving and camping but the weather doesn't do me the favour.
I'm craving for a sunny day.
Musty loves.
Be careful when you watch love movies.
You might fall in love with the first one you come across,in order to fill the gap they created in you.
But don't pay attention to what I say.I could give you thousands of advice.
Like brush your teeth before you go to sleep,or always use gloves when you're opening the oven,or don't forget to feed the cat,or never go out of the house without your keys,or never take the bus without a ticket,or always wear socks,otherwise your feet will stink etc.

But if you really want to listen to me.Keep in mind only one thing:
Asking yourself "So what?".

Fish and chips?No thank you.

And everybody thinks  they can see me.
But I'm invisible.
And everybody thinks they know.
But the obvious doesn't let them see what I never hid.
And don't listen to me that I shout.
I shout,cause I don't feel pain.
And I'm the sea.
And the circumstances,the relationships,my fish.
Which swim across me.
But they can't change my shape.They can't touch me.
And I'm begging you quietly to shoot me.
Hoping you'll open two holes in my water.
To fit 2 mL of emotions.
And I'm shouting at you "shoot me".
And you keep wetting your feet in me.
How fool I was to believe you could make me overflow.
You better stay at the beach to keep licking your legs.
Cause if you were coming deeper,I would drown you out.
That's why I'm thinking of leaving.
I'm going to splash on the rocks with rush.
That's what I wanted,I told you.To feel pain.

I can't smell anything else but your scent on my clothes.Even on my lips.I only feel your taste.
That's why I decided to start running again.Literally this time.
To spend a couple of hours with me.To recognise what I see in the mirror.
That was when I realised you don't need to be single to feel solitude.
That was when I realised I don't really live these days.I'm in coma.
I remembered how important it is for me to feel.
I remembered reading somewhere that how you spend your days is how you spend your life.

Thank you for making me pissed off.

Thank you for making me jealous.

Thank you for making me afraid of losing you.

Thank you for taking the remote control of my mood in your hands.

Thank you for making me feel.

Reservations

I'm standing on my bed.

Ι open my arms.

I dive in the air of the room.

The ceiling opens like a can.

I can see the sky now.

I fly outside and the light of the sun blinds me.

I swim in the blue sky.

I'm coming to pick you up.

Get ready.I don't like to wait.

I'll take you out today.

I made a reservation.

The world is waiting for us to discover it.